An ode to the other side of me

 You really messed things up

 in my head and life by creating a fine line .

 You really did 

 And I don't know how to feel through this . But i guess that's what makes you who you are - an artist .

 You can literally do and change things .

 Just like you changed things for me.. in a bad way . 

But then , thats what it is . You did it .

 The artist in you did it .

 I have rage on myself but i cannot help but bow down .

Create more . Create till you die .

Bridging the words i reached on the shore 

Waves , fairy lights , dance , wind , sand ..

And everything humane 

Obsessive noise 

Paralyzing me 

Deeper than skin 

Fading underneath 

Internally unkind 

Numb to all love 

Beauty blind 

I was standing still at the shore 

Breathing.. the chaotic wind rising from the sea 

Until i realised the chaotic wind was from within me 

I burried you underneath my toe into the sand 

From where you could not rise again and become another drink of brand every night